I'm starting to get that knot in my gut again.
It just seems like so much is crumbling around us. Bad things can happen to anyone. No one is immune. While I'm only talking about money now, it really seems to be able to make or break a big chunk of our lives. I have two good friends whose husbands are both out of work. Nothing they did wrong...sometimes crappy things just happen. Another good friend, who seems to have it all together and taken care of, is thinking of trying to wait tables once or twice a week just to be able to have a little more money. I was feeling like David and I were in a pretty good place financially, but it still seems like there is barely enough to cover the necessities. His workplace normally has to lay off a few guys after the holidays, until business picks up. Most of them are able to work in a different area for a little less money to fill in the gaps and are back to full time work in no time. The list of people that could be laid off is significantly larger this year. While they say that David's job is safe, we still understand that there are no guarantees.
It's funny, because we've all been so focused on the price of gasoline and how much that was affecting our lives. But, gas is under $2.00 a gallon in some places around town, yet I just paid almost 40 cents more for the same bag of cheese I bought the week before. That's a pretty big difference once you really count your pennies. I was lucky to happen upon a 24-pound Thanksgiving turkey for just over $7.00. That's probably the best deal I've ever gotten and it's a good thing because of how much more we'll probably be paying for the rest of the feast.
I'm actually a bit proud of myself for all the ways I've learned to cut corners and save money. That's a nice feeling to accompany the knot that currently resides in my stomach. We've been living so much more responisbly these days and the only thing we have to show for it is that we're a bit less strained than we would be otherwise. I guess we're still pretty lucky.
The word 'lucky' takes on a whole new meaning now, doesn't it?
It's probably going to get worse before it gets better. Before you know it, we'll all be living on Ramen noodles and washing and reusing our Ziploc bags. At least we'll have them.
In the meantime, I have a whole new appreciation for the 'free' or 'paid for' things in life. My ten-year-old Saturn Wagon has never looked prettier.